Hey y’all!
My sincerest apologies. As usual, internet is a problem, except at my internship- where I can’t use my VPN, and therefore can’t get on to blog, upload pictures, etc. So this does make life more difficult.
Today, when walking to the subway, I felt like such a grown-up. Commuting to work in the morning, all dressed up and in a hurry, rushing back to go to the gym, picking up dinner on the way back, etc. Why do we have to grow up? When I dress up for work I still feel like a little girl playing princess- although I don’t wear a crown to work. I still get to have a tea party- just with my computer. Not so fun.
My Chinese is improving a lot in my internship, and some with my Chinese class- and I’m starting to become more comfortable speaking outside of class. I had a lovely conversation with someone on Tuesday (International Women’s Day!) about how long it took us both to get take-out. Baby steps, baby steps.
This week being the beginning of Lent has made me a little homesick- no pancakes on Tuesday, no Ash Wednesday service, and no one else to talk about what we’re giving up for Lent. However, today I realized I’ve got less than 2 months until I’m actually home- so I might as well make the best of it!!! Right?
Life here continues to be perplexing. I miss all of y’all (family, friends, but this week especially my Morocco friends) terribly! It can be very lonely here- this program can be alienating sometimes. While I love my friends here, I sometimes feel like I just don’t belong on this program. I wonder a lot if this means I don’t belong in China- it seems that Americans in China just aren’t like me. What does that mean for my future? Should Chinese be a part of it? And can I return to China? I felt like I found such a great community in Morocco, not just of students but others, and I’m not sure this community exists here.
This sounds so morose, and I promise life in China isn’t all bad! The weather is finally improving, so I’m hoping to do some outside things this weekend- possibly even running! And classes are relatively interesting- my Chinese Women’s Studies class is going very well, and well, my political reforms class was cancelled this week. I also went to the grocery store and managed to find some peppers! I’m super excited to eat them and finally get some veggies in my diet. I also bought some carrot juice- not the most appetizing, but I really need veggies.
Well, that’s it for now! Lots of love! Skype/email/facebook me about your life!
Love always,
Lauren
I think you should wear a crown to work. That would be great.
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